I hated you, I hated you
For saying things I hated, acting as if you knew it all
If only you weren’t here, if only you weren’t here
To feel that way, even for a second, made me hate myself more
How I hated
I wanted to know you, I wanted to know you
Because you act like you’re totally fine without me
I envied you, I envied you
For being loved regardless of all my efforts
The sky in front of you never kept the same color
But to know that I know you, whom no one in the world knows
Made me feel proud
You were a mirror, you were a mirror
My feeling for you mirrored myself too precisely that I had to look away
At times we were parent and child, at times we were lovers
At times we were family, friends, sisters, and total strangers
I want to see you look happy, yes I do
But sometimes I crave to see you cry, just sometimes
When you left, nothing was left behind
You were the only proof of my being here alive
What color do you see when you think of me?
Why don’t we slowly mix and make a new color?
I’m writing you a song with the hand I hold out that still doesn’t reach
And yet, you were definitely The light for me to live
The light