How much longer can I go on like this?
I pretended I didn’t notice.
If this is something I’m bound to break,
Then that’s just another consequence.
Will I be able to be myself
In a world where you’re the only one who isn’t there?
I’ll tell a lie now–
This is my one and only lie to you.
“You don’t have to wait for me.”
Even though I know it’s unkind and it’s not what’s in my heart…
Facing this sadness
Won’t help anyone.
If I were able to hate you completely,
Maybe that would’ve saved me.
A song without a shred of truth to it hits my heart,
And I’m just crying these tears.
I’ll put this behind me now,
Just like you hoped I would.
“You don’t have to wait for me.”
Because I know there’s no going back,
And you’re nowhere to be found.
Just out of habit, I said,
“You’ll be fine even if I’m gone,”
But would you be satisfied
If I keep on smiling like nothing’s wrong?
In living my life by covering up for myself to hide something,
I couldn’t see past my own weakness I’d protected.
I won’t even be granted the chance to touch it.
This is my one and only lie to you.
“I’ll be fine on my own.”
These words of farewell that I don’t mean in my heart…