I’ve decided I’ll never fall in love
That’s why I didn’t know at first
I didn’t know
Just how much I’d fallen in love with you
I’m not lonely, really
I actually like being alone, really
I don’t want to get in anyone’s way
And I don’t want anyone getting in my way
I’ve been walking
My own way through life
But
I’ve met you
And now our fates are intertwined
I feel so uncertain
But the pain almost brings me to tears
I’m not usually this weak
It’s because of you that I shed these tears
It’s because of you that my frozen heart has melted
It’s because of your smile
I thought I’d never change
I thought I couldn’t change
What should I say to you?
The sound of my heartbeat is quivering
With fear and anticipation
Echoing
On a sleepless night
I’ve been afraid
I’ve always been hurt more easily than others
I didn’t want you to see straight through me
So I hid it from you
I’ve been holding on to the pain of living
And my tangled identity
But you’re the first person
Who’s ever been there for me like this
Even if one day
The two of us end up joined
With two entirely different people
Even if we never see each other again…
I’ve found you
And so begins this loving heart
Even if this love is one-sided
I want to see you so much now that it hurts
I’ve decided I’ll never fall in love
That’s why I can’t tell you after all
I can’t tell you
Just how much I’ve fallen in love with you
May I continue to love you like this?