Why can’t I just tell you how I feel?
I can’t. I can’t.
I was afraid you wouldn’t like me.
What the words would do to you.
I kept my mouth shut and swallowed the air.
I dropped the lid on my heart.
I don’t know what I should’ve said.
I couldn’t see your face.
I might have hurt you.
The more I think that, the more I get hurt.
I don’t know why I always end up like this.
I keep making mistakes.
I want to be nice to you.
But you never tell me what’s right.
Nothing seems to be going well.
I heard someone laughing in the distance
I’m fed up with everything.
I’m fed up with everything.
I looked for a place where no one was and cried and cried unbearably.
I had something I wanted to say.
I don’t know how to put it into words.
No one can hear me like this.
I just couldn’t muster up the courage to do it.
I’m not good enough.
I’m used to the predictive text.
Stay the same.
The light is green. I have to go fast.
But my heels are still planted.
My wavering mind is looking for excuses.
Waiting for the light to flash on and off.
Why do you say it’s so easy?
I don’t even want to compare
The ordinary things.
Everyone else seems so dazzled.
I just think I’m doing my best.
But I’m not trying hard enough.
I’m fed up with everything.
I’m fed up with everything.
I’m hiding a wound
That no one knows about
The truth is, I was frustrated.
I can’t give up. I can’t give up.
These thoughts of mine will never reach anywhere.
Never reach.
Never reach.
Words hurt people.
You can’t take them back.
That’s why I hid my true feelings.
But…
I can’t forget
The things that made me happy.
I hold in my heart only the words that I don’t want to let go.
The sunset sky surrounds me.
I’m called to tomorrow again.
I’m fed up with everything.
I’m fed up with everything.
Crying many times alone in an empty place
I have a lot to say.
I don’t know how to put it into words.
No one can hear me like this.