Although I know hiding my true self beneath my wings is a futile endeavor
Bearing the pain born of loneliness inevitably gives way to an uneasy future, but also hope
Battles in the sky turn adoration into vapor, but constantly suppressing desire
Will only ever bear twisted shapes
How selfish of me, to want to make the rays of the sun as daylight breaks in the east my own
How can I explain that I want to believe
In those dark yet brilliant places, where vague words can’t reach?
Even if the heat burning my body makes me want to let go
Of the breath caressing my skin
The wings that can carry me back to that town matter to me a little more
Ahh, if only I could keep going like this forever, I would find a warm spot
Still too soft to the touch
When exactly did it all start? Was it the morning I was sweeping the floor of my messy room
Unstable emotions that will never see the light of day, just like my perpetually disorganized life
I take the pile of dirty dishes, the moldy bread, the disposable bottle of jam
And cram it all into a trash bag and sling it over my back, marking a day of celebration
But typically it’s just a fleeting impulse or a stopgap effort You can even sleep on the floor once you get used to it
You can even sleep on the floor once you get used to it
Please, keep safely breathing, until I’m ready to reveal my secrets
How can I explain that I want to love
Both the shallow and the deep, where even perfect words won’t reach?
Even amidst the heat that makes me want to let go
Of your breath against my skin
The wings that can carry me back to that town matter to me a little more
Ahh, if only I could keep going like this forever
I want to take even those distorted shapes into a warm embrace with a smile
All the way to the sky