Even the meaning of living
Was taken away
In this distorted world
I was trying to destroy everything
(In exchange for everything)
I sought power
(At the end of compensation)
No matter what was waiting
To change the ending—future—
Set yourself free
The answer
Is something no one
Can understand
So you have to
Carve out your own path
While resisting
What I was searching for
Was not hope or miracles
I just
Want proof of living with you now
I keep questioning myself
Sensory perception is aberration
Having absurd dreams
I was waiting for a magician
(Envying others)
I was belittling myself
(Even if I begged, no one)
Would save me
To seize tomorrow—
Show that you’re struggling
We are not
Substitutes for anyone
The ending—future—is in our own hands
We will paint it ourselves
While being mocked
My polluted pride
Aims for a reversal
It’s okay to be hurt many times
Keep resisting
The answer
Is something no one
Can understand
So you have to
Carve out your own path
While wandering
The place I arrived at
Is neither defeat nor victory
Certainly, now
It’s just this heartbeat I’m living with