If only I had done this
If only I had said that
Whether it was good or not
I don’t really know
I don’t want to have regrets
But I also don’t want to not care
I can’t seem to find the right balance
My heart just can’t settle
Let me check my answers
What was wrong?
I don’t want to try
But I find myself wanting to make sure
Why do we always
Make mistakes so easily?
Losing sight of what’s important
I wiped away my tears and walked
I didn’t want to doubt
My decision from back then
What am I doing?
I feel like a fool
Is it okay to stay like this?
Even though it’s impossible
How much is “good enough”?
What’s “normal”? Even if you tell me
All I feel is
Unbearable anxiety
You’re always
So close to me
Why do I feel like
You’re so far away?
Even though the place in our hearts is different for each of us
I find myself seeking the same thing
Things don’t go as planned
That’s just how it is
Acting like it’s nothing
Don’t smile at me
I held back my tears and hid
Your pain
Just waiting helplessly
We pass each other by
I’ve had enough
Trying to soothe but only reopening wounds
The more I know, the less I understand
Hearts are really on the edge
So close yet untouchable
Why do we always
Make mistakes so easily?
In emotions without answers
We want to find reasons
Thinking, “If only I had done this or that”
I become unsure
I wiped away my tears and walked
I turned my decision from back then
Into pain
What am I doing?
Caught up
I feel like a fool