I crossed the sea and realized
I thought of you and realized
I’m the one who chose
To become a monster

The taste of salt I witnessed that day
The view of the sky I saw in my dreams
Made me forget even my pain
Like dust in the wind

I can’t even remember the taste of honey
Even the sweets I used to eat
Are like a lump of clay at this point
Only emptiness remains

When I look in the mirror
A monster I’ve never seen before is reflected there
An unknown face
Muddy with foundation

The wind fluttered and the flowers laughed
My face can be seen there
I was able to love all of it
Because there was a future there
The heart of this fantasy beats
The people we loved are forgotten
And we can’t go back anymore
It’s pulled out at the roots

Buried in love, it becomes summer
As the sea breeze leaves, it becomes autumn
Diving into the soil, it becomes winter
Before I know it, my skin is peeling off

Growing horns, I cried out
Batting my wings, I bathed in the sea
I became a monster and exalted the night sky

Loneliness alone turns to cold
Snatching at my heart
I realize my memories of faces I saw
Are constantly changing

My body never grows up
Rusting, turning into coal
Each time these wings danced
A new wind would leave the past behind

The reason I liked the rain
The reason I hated the snow
Was because I wasted countless nights crying
Until everything had become faded
The heart of this fantasy beats
The songs we loved are forgotten
And we can’t go back anymore
It’s devoured down to the roots

I crossed the sea and realized
I thought of you and realized
I’m the one who chose
To become a monster

The winter is so cold that it hurts
So I searched for the sight of your face
Even the things I cut away that day
Were carried by these wings

The wind fluttered and the flowers laughed
How many years have passed
Since I started living so recklessly
That I forgot those days you loved
The heart of the fruit beats
All meaning is forgotten
At this point, I can’t go back anymore
So I’ll live recklessly
Devouring each day

Many times, for many years
I will remember
With hollowed wings
I will fly

Crossing the sea I realized
Thinking of you I realized
The one who chose to become
A monster was me

The taste of the salt I saw that day
The skyscapes in my dreams
Are like dust dancing in the air
I forget even the pain

I can’t even remember the taste of honey
Nor the sweets I used to eat
Now like a lump of clay
I have this lingering wretchedness

I see my reflection in the mirror
Now a monster I have never seen before
And this unknown face
Rocks my foundation to the core

The wind fluttered and the flowers smile
And there was my face
I loved anything and everything
Because there was a future
The vision sends my heart beating
I’ve even forgotten the people I love
There’s no going back for us
We’re going to uproot everything

Covered in love summer comes
The sea breeze passes autumn comes
Dive into the earth winter comes
Unaware the skin has flaked off

My horns sprouted and I cried out
Brush off the wings and bathe in the sea
I became the monster and celebrated the night sky

Only loneliness can carry off the heart
In place of the cold
Before you know it
This stranger’s face is ever changing

As I am I will never become an adult
Only the body rusted will turn to ash
Every time my wings flutter a new wind
Leaves the past behind

The reason I loved the rain
The reason I hated the snow
Is because anything and everything fades
How many nights have I wasted in tears
The vision sends my heart beating
I’ve even forgotten the song I loved
There’s no going back for us
We’re going to uproot and devour everything

Crossing the sea I realized
Thinking of you I realized
The one who chose to become
A monster was me

Winter is cold and painful so
I’ve been searching for your face
Even what I cut off that day
The feathers carried all away

The wind fluttered and the flowers smile
I foolhardy lived so much that I forgot
The days that I loved you
How many years have passed
Fruit that sends my heart beating
I’ve forgotten what that means
It’s too late I can’t turn back
Recklessly I’m going to
Consume the days away and live

Many times over many years
I remember
On clipped wings
I fly away

海を渡って気づいた
君を思って気づいた
化物になることばかりを
選んだのは僕だった

あの日見た塩の味も
夢で見た空の景色も
埃が舞うみたいに
痛みすら忘れてゆく

蜜の味すら思い出せない
昔食べてたお菓子すら
今じゃ粘土の塊みたいで
あとに侘しさが残る

鏡に映る自分は
見たことない化物になっていて
知らん顔で
ファンデーションで濁した

風がなびいて花が笑って
そこに僕の顔があって
何もかも愛したのは
そこに未来があったからだ
空想が鼓動を打って
好きな人も忘れ去って
僕らはもう戻れないんだよ
根こそぎ抉っていく

恋に埋もれて夏になり
潮風が去って秋になり
土に潜って冬になり
知らずに肌が剥がれ落ちる

ツノが生えて泣き叫び
翼を払って海を浴び
化物になって夜空を謳歌した

寂しさばかりが
寒さに変わり心を攫っていく
気づけば誰かの面影ばかりが
絶えず変わっていく

大人になれないまんまで体だけが
錆びついて炭になる
翼が舞うたび新たな風が
過去を捨て去ってった

雨が好きだった理由も
雪が嫌いだった理由も
何もかも薄れるほど
涙で何度夜を浪費した
空想が鼓動を打って
好きな歌も忘れ去って
僕らはもう戻れないんだよ
根こそぎ貪っていく

海を渡って気づいた
君を思って気づいた
化物になることばかりを
選んだのは僕だった

冬が寒くて痛いから
君の顔を探していた
あの日切り捨てたことすらも
羽根が全部持ってった

風がなびいて花が笑って
君がすきだった日々を
忘れるほどがむしゃらに生きて
何年が経っただろう
果実が鼓動を打って
意味なんて忘れ去って
今更もう戻れないんだよ
がむしゃらに日々を
貪って生きていく

何回も何年も
思い出す
抉れた翼で
飛んでゆく