Whenever I look back on the days I faced my own soul
And the sins that I accumulated as I moved forward
In the season where the snow flutters down gently
My heart aches
Venus in the eastern dawn remains burned into my memory
On that morning, I threw away my humanity
Countless insects wriggling, a gloomy forest
Breath growing ragged, breaking into a sprint, the sound of grass underfoot
Pursuer closing in on my throat, the signs of a monster
A multitude of eyes in the darkness
Tinged with moisture—As it flickers
I want to shake off the hallucination
With the silhouettes tailing me
The stars don’t see me now……
The stars can’t reach me now, far away
They won’t fade, no matter where I flee
They won’t fade until this shadow dies!
The monster was me, myself
I always thought my false self was my true one
After idolizing a childish falsehood, my past is all twisted
I’ll prove it all
By destroying the sensations I can’t reclaim
Stepping on and over the enshrined corpse of a god
I head for a new world
Sinking, unconcerned
To the depths of ruin
I’m destroying, I’m breaking free of
The chains of ingrained common sense
Snatching away at the purest white
I want to see sights no one’s ever seen
Brand new snow
Within the flames that scorch my body
I see a pallid future
I could draw breath
Only when among humans
Yet, if my being born wasn’t a mistake…
Then from this snowy field, I’ll do it all over
I’ll set the past I’ve collected ablaze
The sins I’ve carried and the prestige I’ve accumulated, too
Everything’s in the past, it’s done
Defined by the past
Defined by others
If that’s what you call human
Then I want to see the world beyond it, I want to go to the world beyond it!
Where did I go wrong? From where can I start over
And get them all back? My regrets, that is…
When did I fail? Where did I mess up?
Is there something I can redo to get them all back?
Stepping on and over the enshrined corpse of a god
I head for a new world
Sinking, unconcerned
To the depths of ruin
I’m destroying, I’m breaking free of
The chains of ingrained common sense
I want to see sights no one’s ever seen
Brand new snow
Within the flames that scorch my body
I see a pallid future