Without warning, loneliness creeps up
On a clifftop, as I embrace a bouquet
I stand on my toes
Barely learning the ways not to tumble down
The relentless name and shackles
I bust through the lock with my heels
Suppressing my voice as I cry endlessly
Staring in despair at these painful days
I am tired of being robbed by them
What I pray for is
Nothing beyond
To all that I loved
May misfortune never come
I continue to pray earnestly
Even while saying things like this
With days cruel enough to become reality
I close my eyes and try whispering softly
“There’s nothing to be afraid of”
Entangled in the hustle and bustle, if a cruel past
Suddenly barges in on me
What would be the proper response?
Would you acknowledge me as I cry down on my knees?
“There’s nothing to be afraid of”
I remember someone’s words
Like a spell, like a little prayer
If you look at the mirror without averting your eyes, you shall see the most endearing person standing there
Isn’t it always so?
“What an awful face! It’s because of you!”
I lash out only to find myself on the receiving end
‘Til I tasted blood
I kept screaming
Yet not one thing resurrects
Nor does it end or start anything
Right now, righteousness serves no purpose
I want to forgive
I want to accept
I want to love myself, but…
Everyone eventually returns to the earth
I hear it’s a beautiful place to honor those who lived through it
To go on living and what awaits in death
Is the most wonderful thing
Don’t let anyone take that away
To all that I loved
May misfortune never come
I continue to pray earnestly