Everyone wishes for happiness.
Being no different myself, there’s no way I can escape it.
Wishing to not end up unhappy,
We all scrambled for the only seat available.
Unable to even mourn
The lives that weren’t chosen,
I’m still here today,
Living shamelessly…
Singing shamelessly…
Apologizing to someone whose face I can’t even see.
My mom and dad fell in love;
Now 20 years have passed since I was born.
How many people have shown me love?
How many people have I hurt along the way?
I can’t… I can’t answer that.
Someone who’d wished to be chosen
Might have been able to see the color of the light.
But I’m still searching for it today
As I venture back and forth—again and again—
Between wanting to die, and wanting to live.
Today is someone’s birthday,
But it’s also the anniversary of your death.
I’m sure I’ll remember it suddenly,
Until I completely forget one day.
Inhaling my first breath
After thinking about dying, but stopping myself,
I’m singing this song.
Even if there’s nowhere I particularly want to go…
Even if I don’t know the reason I was born…
At least… at least…
At least… at least… at least…
Happy birthday!
Happy birthday!
Unhappy birthday
To you!
Happy birthday!
Happy birthday!
Unhappy birthday
To you!
Unable to even mourn
The lives that weren’t chosen,
I’m still wishing today:
“Please, keep on living!”
“Please, don’t die!”
I scream the words again and again!
I’m here with the people that wished to be chosen,
But the world still continues on today.
I’m still searching for a place to belong
As I lose my way—again and again—between
Wanting to die, and wanting to live.
I hope each and every life that’s born
Can feel love, at the very least!
So they can someday learn to be kind…
So that a kind morning can someday visit this world…
Happy birthday!
Happy birthday!
Unhappy birthday
To you!
Happy birthday!
Happy birthday!
Unhappy birthday
To you!