If you were suddenly gone, the world probably wouldn’t come to a halt
If I were suddenly gone, that girl might still be smiling
From the moment we’re born, we try to keep from being forgotten
By smiling, and smiling and smiling and smiling, until we’re sick to our stomachs
Being forgotten is more frightening than dying
I thought no one would pay attention to me if I didn’t howl like a mad dog
Just like those paintings that aren’t worth anything till a few decades after the artist dies
I wonder if these useless days would start seeming beautiful somehow, if I just died
I’ve started feeling that just by breathing, just by being alive, I’m causing nothing but trouble.
I’ve given up on lots of things, including the kindness of others.
For as long as I can, I’ll squeeze my throat. Stopping my breath, stopping my breath
But it won’t kill me… I won’t die, so I don’t think it’ll be enough to forgive me.
Even if I try to keep up appearances, even if I’m told to just believe
You were terrible yesterday, with a face that screamed “I’ll kill you!!!”
Ever since being born, we’ve tried to cover over our reality
By smiling, and smiling and smiling and smiling, until we’re tired of smiling and crying in the shadows
And then we whisper, “I wanna die,” and sure enough, two or three people start avoiding us
Right now, it’s spreading throughout the whole world, there’s no day the dictator switch doesn’t get pushed*
I thought that if I could just have simpler relationships, I could make it through my whole life
Oh, it’s fine. I’m not saying all this to you, so don’t mind me, goodbye
Whenever someone smiles, someone else is in despair
Will you just say “that’s just how it is” and watch them die?
I’ll pin that person’s face to the wall, and I’ll stab it, and stab it
But that won’t kill them… they won’t die, so it’d be nice if that’d be enough to forgive them
Within my memories, I ask a child, “did you manage to make some friends?”
The child smiles with a face much like my own, “aren’t you the one who knows that best?”
That’s right, isn’t it? That’s how it is, but I’ve completely forgotten
Why?! Why is it that you can smile like you’re having so much fun?
Maybe there’s still time, maybe I can still reclaim it all
For as long as I can, I’ll squeeze my throat. Stopping my breath, stopping my breath
But it won’t kill me… I won’t die, so tears came flowing out instead
I’ll smile tomorrow, I’ll force myself to smile, I’ll smile somehow, I’ll smile desperately
I’ll keep living on… I won’t die
So won’t you forgive me?
So won’t you forgive me?
If you were suddenly gone, the world probably wouldn’t come to a halt
If I were suddenly gone, that girl might still be smiling
But you smiled today… you, only you, smiled today
With just that, my whole world was saved
And that’s the honest truth
* A gadget appearing in the Doraemon series that has the power to erase people from existence, with only the user able to remember the erased persons