If you were suddenly gone, the world probably wouldn’t come to a halt
If I were suddenly gone, that girl might still be smiling
From the moment we’re born, we try to keep from being forgotten
By smiling, and smiling and smiling and smiling, until we’re sick to our stomachs

Being forgotten is more frightening than dying
I thought no one would pay attention to me if I didn’t howl like a mad dog
Just like those paintings that aren’t worth anything till a few decades after the artist dies
I wonder if these useless days would start seeming beautiful somehow, if I just died

I’ve started feeling that just by breathing, just by being alive, I’m causing nothing but trouble.
I’ve given up on lots of things, including the kindness of others.

For as long as I can, I’ll squeeze my throat. Stopping my breath, stopping my breath
But it won’t kill me… I won’t die, so I don’t think it’ll be enough to forgive me.

Even if I try to keep up appearances, even if I’m told to just believe
You were terrible yesterday, with a face that screamed “I’ll kill you!!!”
Ever since being born, we’ve tried to cover over our reality
By smiling, and smiling and smiling and smiling, until we’re tired of smiling and crying in the shadows
And then we whisper, “I wanna die,” and sure enough, two or three people start avoiding us
Right now, it’s spreading throughout the whole world, there’s no day the dictator switch doesn’t get pushed*
I thought that if I could just have simpler relationships, I could make it through my whole life
Oh, it’s fine. I’m not saying all this to you, so don’t mind me, goodbye

Whenever someone smiles, someone else is in despair
Will you just say “that’s just how it is” and watch them die?

I’ll pin that person’s face to the wall, and I’ll stab it, and stab it
But that won’t kill them… they won’t die, so it’d be nice if that’d be enough to forgive them

Within my memories, I ask a child, “did you manage to make some friends?”
The child smiles with a face much like my own, “aren’t you the one who knows that best?”
That’s right, isn’t it? That’s how it is, but I’ve completely forgotten
Why?! Why is it that you can smile like you’re having so much fun?
Maybe there’s still time, maybe I can still reclaim it all

For as long as I can, I’ll squeeze my throat. Stopping my breath, stopping my breath
But it won’t kill me… I won’t die, so tears came flowing out instead
I’ll smile tomorrow, I’ll force myself to smile, I’ll smile somehow, I’ll smile desperately
I’ll keep living on… I won’t die
So won’t you forgive me?
So won’t you forgive me?

If you were suddenly gone, the world probably wouldn’t come to a halt
If I were suddenly gone, that girl might still be smiling
But you smiled today… you, only you, smiled today
With just that, my whole world was saved
And that’s the honest truth

多分あなたが居なくたって　世界が止まることは無いし
恐らく僕が居なくたって　あの子は今日も笑っている
僕等は産まれてからずっと　人から忘れられない為に
笑って笑って笑って笑う　笑い疲れて吐き気がする

忘れ去られてしまう事が　死ぬことよりも恐ろしいよ
狂犬みたいに吠えてなきゃ　相手にされないと思ったんだ
死後数十年経った後　価値が認められた絵みたいに
役にも立たないこんな日々も　死ねば奇麗に映るかな

もう息してたって　生きてたって　迷惑にしかならない気がして
色々諦めたんだ　優しさを貰う事も

できるだけ長く　首を絞めて　息を止めて　息を止める
死ねやしないけど　死ねやしないから　これじゃ許されないよなぁ

今更取り繕ったって　それで「信じなさい」と言われたって
昨日の君は酷かったよ　殺してやるってあんな顔で
僕等は産まれてからずっと　事実をひた隠しする為に
笑って笑って笑って笑う　笑い疲れて陰で泣いて
そして「死にてぇな」って呟いて　案の定2、3人に避けられて
今や全世界に蔓延る　独裁スイッチが押されない日は無い
安易な関係手に入れて　一生やっていけると思ってた
ああ大丈夫　あんたには言ってない　だから気にしないでねさようなら

誰かが一人笑う度に　別の誰かが絶望してるんだ
「そんなもんだ」なんて言ってさ　また見殺しにするのかい

壁にあの人の　写真貼って　何度も刺して　何度も刺して
死にやしないけど　死にやしないけど　それで許せたら良かったのに

記憶の中の子供に問う　「ちゃんと仲良くできてましたか」
良く似た顔の子供は笑って　「それはあなたがよく知ってるでしょ」
そりゃそうなんだよな　確かにさ　でも分かんなくなっちゃったんだよ
なあ　どうしてそんなにさ　楽しそうに笑えるんだい
まだ間に合うかな　取り戻せるかな

できるだけ長く　首を絞めて　息を止めて　息を止める
死ねやしないけど　死ねやしないから　代わりに涙が出てきたよ
明日は笑って　無理矢理笑って　何とか笑って　必死で笑って
生きていくから　死にやしないから
それで許してくれませんか
それで許してくれませんか

多分あなたが居なくたって　世界が止まることは無いし
恐らく僕が居なくたって　あの子は今日も笑っている
でもあなたが今日笑ったこと　他でもないあなたが笑ったこと
それで僕の世界は　救われたんだよ
本当さ