I don’t understand, what hope is new
Thoughts are rubbed out any number of times
My body hasn’t caught up to my voice yet
It weighs heavily, it’s frustrating, it’s bitter
This road alone is all with each other
Clashing and tangling in tangles
Without fail, what can I do on my own?
And when I ask there’s nothing there
I suppose I understand there’s no absolute
But I don’t like it being just myself who won’t stand up
If I think that way then perhaps I should just cry hard
No matter how I shout here, it’s still sad
But I know all those things
I’m just searching all the time
I don’t understand, what secrets are small
Thoughts are bound to become sad expectations
There’s not just one, though it dissolves in truth
No one notices, we just ask for a decision, though it’s void of meaning
It’s not a simple thing, it continues in abundance
It runs away so much I can’t get a piece
Don’t finish, don’t leave it, that’s enough
No matter how I struggle, it’s still painful
But I know all those things
I’m just searching all the time
I suppose I understand there’s no absolute
But I still can’t give up
Even if the words are forgotten, that’s okay
But I know all those things
I’m alone now, but still searching all the time