Being born normally, growing up just as normal
The surroundings and my family are ordinary as what I learnt before
It has always been a vaguely shaped form since my life began
Before I noticed, the “surroundings” gradually disappeared
What left behind was a torn up dirty diary
It was filled up with wounds

An unjust life becomes someone’s salvation
“So it wasn’t wrong” will I be able to say that someday?
Ever since I was born, there was no such thing
That’s all I was able to pick up throughout my life
Sometimes the things I picked up are unbearable realities
Which pierces through sharply Even so, I regret letting them go

Monotonous days, suddenly losing sight
Continuing on like it always has been I’m fumbling, it’s just colorless
Life is only once, as words gather in my mouth
It’s unreal If I die here right now Will I ever get to open my eyes again?
Thinking about such foolish things, as the day falls

I accept everything even though no one is there
If I had a weakness, I wish so
From birth, even without such things
I decided myself the last place to go at the end
Even if things can’t be recovered, overflown and broken
I will be there Until my body no longer moves

This given life is the salvation of someone
“So it wasn’t wrong” laughing as that day comes
From birth, even without anything
Go beyond the dead, stand there and raise your hand
Even if the thing I hold will kill me someday
Even that will be fine Until my voice reaches the endpoint

普通に生まれ、普通に大人になる
周りも家族も普通で私は前に習う
人生の初めの頃から漠然と形にあった
いつの間にか”周り”が少しずつ消え去り
残されたのは酷く汚れた日記帳と
引っ掻いた傷跡だけだった

否定された人生が誰かの救いになって
「間違いじゃなかった」といつか言える日が来るのか？
生まれた時からなんてそんなことは無くても
途中で拾い上げたそれが私の全てで
手に取った物は時には背負えない現実を
鋭く突き付ける　それでも手放すのは惜しかったんだ

単調な日々、前触れもなく見失う
今の在り方を ずっとそう 手探りで色が無い
人生は一度切りだと口を揃えて言うけれど
非現実的だ 今ここで死んだら本当に二度と目覚めないのか
そんな下らない事を考えてまた日を落とす

全部受け止めてとかそこに誰も居なくても
願ってしまうんだよ私は弱さを抱えて
生まれた時からなんてそんなことは無くても
自分で決めた場所で最期を迎え終わると
取り戻せない物が溢れて壊れてしまっても
私は此処にいる　身体が動かなくなるその時まで

与えられた人生が誰かの救いになって
「間違いじゃなかった」と笑い合う日が来るだろう
生まれた時からなんてそんなものは無くても
屍を超えて今此処に立ち手を上げよう
手に取ったものがいつしか自分を殺めても
それでいい　届けよう　私の声が終点に辿り着くまで