Why are only the past days beautiful?
Why am I reluctant to part with the hatred I let go?
Why is it that the more I see you as someone dear
The more I hate myself?

“You, who is suffering, are a pain in the neck”
Though I have no need to be loved by a monster who says such things
Before I realize the fixed position of my roundish brain isn’t fixed anymore

I arrived, wishing to run away
When I got to realize it, my head was empty
Clinging onto living, what in this world did I forget?

Why does love and warmth irritate me?
Although this won’t be answered, why am I on the side of being saved?
Although I have no courage to save you
Why do I think I want to touch you?

Being told that I am spoiled, when I talk about my loneliness
Being looked down upon is just a simple solution to it
So just stop abandoning it
After all you’ve discarded many things
This place was made like that
I won’t whine about that anymore

A blanket of snow, as well as the colors of the autumn
The smell of summer as well as the amount of cherry blossoms
Why is it that I can’t remember a single one of them?
I could go anywhere, but why is it that I can’t go anywhere?
Why is it that the fear that wells up from deep within, doesn’t scare me?

Yes, let’s escape. Let’s discard everything
Status and honor are just trash
Give your answer
What is love?
Going as expected is good and all, don’t put on a parents face
They’re all enemies, discard them all

But why is it that you stand in my way?

過ぎ去った日々ばかりが美しいのはなぜ
手放した憎しみが名残惜しいのはなぜ
あなたを愛おしいと思えば思うほど
自分が醜くなるのはなぜ

「病んでる君は面倒くさい」
そんなことを言うモンスターに好かれる必要なんてないのに
いつの間にか丸みを帯びた脳味噌の定位置が定まらない

逃げ出したいと願って辿り着いた
気づけば頭が空っぽだ
生きることにしがみついて一体何を忘れたんだろう

愛も温もりも苛立つのはなぜ
報われやしないのに救う側なのはなぜ
あなたを愛する勇気がないのに
あなたに触れたいと思うのはなぜ

悲しいなんて口に出したら甘えだろなんて言われて
舐められるのはへっちゃらなのさ
だから見放すのはやめてくれ
散々切り捨てたくせにさ
そうやってできたこの場所だ
もう弱音は吐けないぜ

雪化粧も紅葉の色も
夏の匂いも桜の数も
何一つ思い出せないのはなぜ
どこにだって行けるのにどこにも行けないのはなぜ
腹の底から込み上げる恐れが抑えられないのはなぜ

そうだ逃げよう　全部捨てよう
地位も名誉もただのゴミ屑だ
回答をどうぞ
何が愛だよ
思い通りが良いくせに保護者面するんじゃねえよ
全部敵だ　全部捨てよう

でもあなたが邪魔をするのはなぜ