Recently, there’s nothing I care to say
So I’ve strung together meaningless words
Escape from the need to illuminate
It’s like the bad nights Where I only do retakes
Even uncomfortable motions pass me by
The rain won’t let up, I toss The waterproof umbrella aside and pause
Emotionally heavily guarded
There’s never a seat left for me
Like that afternoon when I skipped class
How tiny to consider The price of surrendering
Still, I should be shouldering
Something special, right?
Oh no, the anesthetics haven’t kicked in
But the surgery has begun
The scalpel makes a cut and it’s done
Doesn’t matter what I say The free trial ends here
There’s nothing I want from the store
Just the “now” that was on sale
Pause the time!
The intro is over
Jam-packed city
Yeah, that’s my grave marker
My pent-up frustrations
Even if I throw my life away
I’d never be fulfilled
Your proclamation of suffering
At least I’m better off than the others
I just can’t seem to like
The things everyone else likes
I hate the way I’m proud of it
There’s no such thing as life after death
So I don’t even get a break
If I were to give it a name, hold on
I can’t think of one, let me be
I choke myself With the jobs I get accepted to
The eyes appraising my actual value
I ponder my honest feelings in the morning
It’s not like you’d let me explain
Inject overconfidence
I question its validity
A visible temperature
The machines were gone
The swan is a prelude to the night
The reason for going with the flow And drifting commune
How many times did I count down For the night to arrive?
What a difference Between turning up the meter and not
We showed off our weaknesses that we pried
The lighter from that day shined brightly
The intro is over
Jam-packed city
Yeah, that’s my grave marker
My pent-up frustrations
Even if I throw my life away
I’d never be fulfilled
Your proclamation of suffering
Dispel the night though I’m still lost
You lost the train ticket
Got dressed up and Ready to night
If you’re diving in, then take it with you
The outro plays on