If I were to be reborn,
What kind of person would I like to be?
Someone cheerful? Someone with a lot of friends?
I guess anything is fine, as long as it’s not who I am now.
Suicide seekers, killers, hypocrites,
Teachers, clergymen, and little girls…
They protect their own hearts, giving it their all, with all their might.
But with that alone, time has already run out.

Today, you’ve been hurt again by ridiculous fantasies.
You’ll probably hate hearing it, but I do understand just a bit.
That’s the way you go on attacking only yourself…
You want to run, you want to escape,
You want to change, but you trip again!

It doesn’t matter if you want to die,
Just don’t keep sitting there! We’re going to find it!
No one can do it for you.
You don’t need permission, so just smile a bit, okay?

Hoping it would be useful when the time comes,
I pulled out my notepad and started writing a story.
After scribbling a bunch and looking it over, I realized something.
It gave me chills. Everything I just wrote was about me, wasn’t it?

“They lived happily ever after…”
Don’t let it end there! Look beyond! You have to figure out what comes next.
There’s a way to keep the happiness we’ve received from breaking…
We want to find it, we want to grasp it,
We want to protect it, but someone breaks them again!

You don’t have to trust anyone
Just don’t keep sleeping there! We’re going to find it!
I can’t smile for you.
I have nothing, just like you.

I wanted to pass something on, but had nothing to give.
With no other option, I chopped my body into little pieces, each a song.
If you happen to want one, please choose any that you like.
I’ll keep singing about this world you hate so much.
I’ll be right here.

It doesn’t matter if you want to die,
Just don’t keep sitting there! I’ll keep on coming to find you.
I can’t forgive you for someone else.
You’re the only one who can forgive yourself!

So try to keep surviving somehow! It doesn’t matter if you stay closed up in your shell.
Even if someone laughs at you for it, it’s not like they can kill you.
It’s okay to despair. Don’t be so afraid of other people.
You don’t have to forgive me, just smile a bit!
Okay?

もしもまた生まれ変われたならば
次はどんな人に生まれたらいいかな
明るいだとか友達が多いだとか
もう何だっていいよな　今の自分じゃないなら
自殺志願者も人殺しも偽善者も
教師も聖職者も小さな女の子も
自分自身の心を守るだけで
精一杯　目一杯　それだけでもう時間切れ

出鱈目な空想で今日も傷付いたんでしょう
たぶん言われるの嫌だろうけどさ　少しくらい分かるよ
そうやって　自分だけずっと責め続けて
逃げ出したくて　抜け出したくて
変わりたくて　また躓いて

もう死にたくたって構わないから
そこに座っていなよ　見つけに行くよ
誰も代わりになれやしないよ
許さなくていいから　少しくらい笑いなよ　ねえ

時が来たら　役に立てるように
ノート引っ張り出して　お話を書いたよ
沢山書き殴って見返して気が付いて
寒気がした　これは全部　自分のことじゃないか

「いつまでも　いつまでも幸せに暮らしました」
そこで終わるなよ　その先だよ　知らなきゃいけないのは
受け取った　幸福を　壊さない方法を
見つけ出したくて　掴みたくて
守りたくて　また壊されて

もう誰のこともさ　信じなくていいから
そこで寝ていなよ　探しに行くよ
君の代わりに　笑ってはやれないよ
何もないのは　僕だって同じなんだよ

何かを渡したいのだけど　何も渡せるものが無くて
仕方ないからこの身体を　細かく刻んで歌にしたよ
君がもしも望んでるなら　どれでも好きなの拾ってよ
君の大嫌いなこの世界を　いつまでもここで歌うから
ここにいるから

もう死にたくたって構わないから
そこに座っていなよ　何度でも見つけに来るから
誰も代わりに許してはやれないよ
君を許せるのは　そう　君しかいない

だからどうにかして生き延びてよ　ずっと閉じたままでも構わないよ
それを笑う奴がいたってさ　どうせ君を殺せやしないから
自暴自棄だっていいよ　やたらと人に怯えないでよ
僕を許さなくていいから　少しくらい笑ってよ
ねえ