The overflowing words, lamenting between ideals and reality
Still hidden, just a muddled, crazy emotion
I didn’t want to see it, I must have wanted to cling to it
A one-person game of self-love and self-denial
Putting it away, locking it up
I felt like it was disappearing
Living as if there were replacements
I can’t see, can’t see, can’t see anything
Still cowering in fear
It’s no good with the breath I’ve dropped
Wishing, swearing, not hiding thoughts
It won’t disappear even if you hide it
Deciding but unable to say
Probing but unresolved
Painful, controlling, pretending
It won’t disappear even if you hide it
Deciding but unable to say
Probing but unresolved
I can’t shake it off
Rich hopes and inferiority
Still holding onto them, patching them up with crumbling fragments
Like muddy water
Just scooping it up makes it dirtier
Chasing after the uncertainty of where it’s going
Being holed up here
Was not what I wished for
Because even if I hide, I’m not noticed
I want to disappear, want to disappear, want to become invisible
I want to be forgotten
I want to stop being remembered
Forever
Living as if there were replacements
I can’t do it, can’t do it, just can’t
Still with a trembling voice, still the broken self
Realizing the true heart
It won’t disappear even if you hide it
Deciding but unable to say
Probing but unresolved
Painful, controlling, pretending
It won’t disappear even if you hide it
Deciding but unable to say
Probing but unresolved