Hey, how are you? How’s it going?
Well, actually, I stopped doing stuff like that.
Yeah, it feels like there’s no chance of recovery anymore.
Please don’t ask me anymore.

Regret, estimation, a friendly chat.
Caregiving, pleasure, sharing — I surrender them all.
Yes, that’s right, it was completely and utterly my fault.
It’s just your typical story.

Wanting to make the plain and simple mine,
I killed the ideal that there’s a certain way things should be.
I’ve had enough but I don’t have it in me to run away.
So hurry and fall, even deeper.

“I want to keep living.”
Every night, I’m suffocated by this transparent summary.
The reality that eats away at my lungs,
Irrationality, loneliness, there’s no need to resent them.
They all mean nothing, after all.
We all have no choice but to live.

Hey, you. How are things?
Oh, you’re still doing stuff like that?
By the way, what happened with that person you were dating?
Please don’t say anything.

The future, jealousy, the sense of defeat.
Wireless, so I can’t even hang myself.
Yes, delightful. That was a very touching story indeed.
Are you happy now?

My heart, clouded in pitch black and in pieces –
I disinfect it with alcohol and go to bed.
I might as well just become the water of a murky river,
And I’ll fall, deeper… and deeper

“I want to keep living.”
Every night, this air that I choke on, the future,
And even this flesh that parades as an organ.
Happiness, this universe, there’s no need to question them.
They’ll never change anyway.
So there’s no need for us to know anything.

“I want to keep living.”
But in reality, I’m not sure if I do.
“I want to keep on living,”
Says the sacred text known as my DNA.
There’s no need to despise your instincts or your fear.
After all, nothing’s going to change anyway.

“I want to keep living.”
Though there’s no hope left for me,
“I want to keep on living,”
Says my instinct as it pulsates in a crimson red.
“I want to keep living.”
“I don’t want to live.”
And it’s extremely unfortunate,
But we all have no choice but to keep living.

I’m sorry I deceived you.
I’m sorry I couldn’t say it.
And it’s terribly sad,
But our suffering is the only bond we share.

なあ　元気？　調子はどうだい？
ああ　もうね　そういうの辞めたんだ
うん　なんか　もう回復の見込みは無いそうなんだ
何も聞かないでくれ

後悔　値踏み　談笑会
介護　悦　共有もサレンダーだ
はい　そうです　正真正銘　僕のせいだった
よくある話

単純明快をモノにしたくて
斯くあるべきという理想を殺して
もう散々だって逃げる勇気も無い
はやく　もっと　堕ちて

「生きていたいよ」
毎夜　喉を塞ぐ透明の概要
肺を蝕む実在も
理不尽も　孤独も　恨まなくていい　
それら全て意味は無いんだ
僕らは生きるしかないんだ

おい　お前　そっちはどうだい？
ああ　まだ　そんなことやってんだ
そういや　付き合ってた子とはどうなったんだ？
何も言わないでくれ

将来　妬み　敗北感
ワイヤレス　首も吊れないな
はい　恐悦　大変　身に染みるお話でした
満たされたかい？

真っ黒く濁って割れた心を
アルコールで消毒して眠る
もう暗澹たる大河の水になって
もっと　もっと　もっと　もっと　堕ちて

「生きていたいよ」
毎夜　喉を掴む空気も未来も
内臓を騙る肉塊も
幸せも　宇宙も　疑わなくていい
それら全て変わらないんだ
僕らは知らなくていいんだ

「生きていたいよ」
なんでか分からないけど
「生きていたいよ」
DNAという聖書
本能も恐怖も恨まなくていい
どうせ何も変わらないんだ

「生きていたいよ」
なんの希望も無いけど
「生きていたいよ」
本能は赤く脈打つの
「生きていたいよ」
「生きてたくないよ」
本当に残念だけど
僕らは生きるしかないんだ

騙してごめんよ
言えなくてごめんよ
そして本当に悲しいけれど
苦しみだけが絆なんだ