If I could wish
Don’t make it blur, don’t make it disappear Don’t let it fade away
I’ve realized
It’s harder to forgive than to love
Somewhere along the line
It becomes harder to cry than to laugh
It becomes easy to believe a lie than the truth
Being okay is nothing but a lie
That is not strength
Let’s fall asleep while we’re drunk on tragedy
I don’t want to wake up
All my life I’ve wished for something
I wouldn’t have prayed for it if I could make it happen
Since it’s easier to believe than to doubt
I adore you and I love you
If I could wish
I wanted to congratulate you on your future
The words I wrote down keeps on bleeding from where I wrote them
I keep thinking that I wish I could be part of your future
It’s a curse,
It’s shameful
I know that
Please tell me that it’s alright
Nothing to be afraid of
heart will not be easily broken
Of Course it is scary
All my life I’ve wished for something
I wouldn’t have prayed for it if I could make it happen
Is it a curse to love without flourishing
Is it possible to convert it into strength
Even if you tear it, it won’t fade away
It’ll never fade away
It’s okay
I’ll go as far as I can go with my beloved curse