As the moon waned,
I realized you weren’t with me anymore.
As the dawn of the new day broke,
I hid my tear-swollen voice amidst the morning dew.
You had said something like, “It’s all my fault that you’re this way.”
That’s right, it’s your fault.
But just remember, that’s not all of it.
Every time my positives overcome the negatives,
It’s thrown into the trash and repeated.
You’ve snatched all those opportunities away from me
time and time again.
This icky feeling is like both my hands
Have been twined tightly with iron filings.
Emptiness burrows into my heart like an angry nest of termites.
Because you’re leaving for good,
I’ll be lost forevermore.
How can you make it up to me?
Happy Heavenly Birthday!
I heard the sound of my future breaking,
being stabbed into with a fork from above.
It gave birth to an irreplaceable past.
I couldn’t say even one simple “thank you.”
In my life, which seems it’s about to crumble apart,
the scars you left on me
have rusted through, and won’t ever fade away.
Why does the fire burn?
I let myself fall, as per your true intentions.
You see now? It’s all your fault.
That’s all there is to it. Understand?
Every time my positives overcome the negatives,
you toss them in the trash and do it all over.
Time and time again, you’ve snatched those opportunities away
and trampled all over them.
It’s me. Hurry up and recognize that already.
With just one earbud tuned in,
I can’t stop hearing your cute voice.
Things have taken a sudden turn…
Until the very end,
I couldn’t hear the dull sound of your sobs.
I’m a worthless, heartless grown-up.
Staring at your big, smiling eyes through the picture frame
is the worst kind of goodbye.
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Inside a tiny room and a voiceless monologue
resides I, who have become a slave to revenge.
I’m made of flesh and bone yet again, anyway.
You’ll go your own way,
and I’ll slovenly fall into ruin.
So, please, at least,
send me to a hell that’s as soft as silk floss.
Happy Heavenly Birthday!