1.Under the spring sky, I remembered the past.
2.My motivation scattered along with the cherry blossoms.
3.The scenery changes whether I think about it or not.4.
5.When I saw the summer clouds, letters floated in my mind,
6.But they never took shape.
7.Because, because, because—8.
9.It’s all an illusion, an illusion.
10.Every word of this is fake.
11.It’s just for survival.
12.If you’re moved, then pay me.
13.Hey, it’s not funny.
14.Hey, it’s not funny.
15.Hey, there’s not a single thing I enjoy.
16.To my dearest you—
17.Because, because, because—18.
19.Pushed by the autumn wind, I walked through the city.
20.My body felt lifeless.
21.The fallen leaves were far more beautiful.22.
23.The winter breeze felt pleasant.
24.I wanted to disappear during the short daylight hours.
25.Because, because—26.
27.I feel so sick,
28.The words I want to write spill out uncontrollably.
29.The words I want to paint, the you I want to paint,
30.This worthless body
31.Craves creation.32.
33.But still,
34.It’s an illusion, an illusion.
35.There’s no value in anything I am.
36.“Your work truly saved me,” don’t say such nonsense.
37.I can only laugh.
38.I can only laugh.
39.The appraisal of life has already ended.40.
41.To my dearest you—42.
43.If I woke up tomorrow and could return to the past,
44.If I could follow a pristine track,
45.I’d want to see fireworks so dazzling
46.They’d blind my eyes.
47.Tear out everything from my brain and destroy it all.
48.If I turn to dust, please hold me.
49.The more I want to live—50.
51.It’s an illusion, an illusion.
52.There’s nothing here that can save anyone.
53.Don’t become like me.
54.I only feel shame.
55.Hey, isn’t that right?
56.Hey, isn’t that right?
57.Hey, your life is the only thing you can change.58.
59.Isn’t it?60.
61.It’s all
62.An illusion, an illusion.
63.But I can’t help how comforting it feels.
64.I’ve written about spring, summer, autumn, and winter—
65.Because I want to create.
66.Hey, I want to create, I want to create.
67.Even if the appraisal of life has ended.68.
69.I can’t stop drooling.
70.I don’t care about saving someone else.
71.I want to save myself.
72.I can’t love myself.
73.So someone, please love me. Please love me.
74.Even after creating, the loneliness won’t stop.75.
76.To my dearest you—
77.The only one who can save you is yourself.
78.It’s not me.
Translated by:
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