I want to say “It’s not you,” and make you think it’s all in your head
Even if the truth comes out, I’ll just play it off, so don’t try to fight it
I don’t want you to line us up neatly alphabetically or by height
Don’t go and leave me the oh-so-lucky one
There’s no place to escape to if you don’t have anyone
Don’t turn my miracle eyes away yet
Let’s drown out the laughter of all those birds that hate me
My disgraceful amount of focus—
Turned up, threw up, tweeted out from my 7th account
Day after day of handing over my ATP so easily
Now my head’s clear, and it’s so frustrating
If I could’ve borne it all unconsciously, it’d have been so much easier
I can’t laugh it off indifferently, I’m trying to keep up appearances
To those blocking my way and bursting with laughter
I can speak nothing but words of thanks
There’s no need to go back
The way things are now, I’ll just go home and sleep
A method of smiling and nodding so much it’s strange
I couldn’t allow it to show on my face
I’ll cry myself exhausted and learn how to reset
If you’re not interested, then just leave me be
Unassailable, unintelligible, unable to remember which floor… It’s not even funny
Day after day of scrutinizing next week’s program
Now my head’s clear, and it’s so frustrating
If I could’ve borne it all unconsciously, it’d have been so much easier
I can’t laugh it off indifferently, I’m trying to keep up appearances
To those blocking my way and bursting with laughter
I can speak nothing but words of thanks
There’s no need to go back
The way things are now, I’ll just go home and sleep
The mock strawberry you gave me… Your first-place spot that I wasn’t ripe enough for
I’ll eat them up, so I can never forget
Until my tears from ago, and the wrong answer
Can be saved from paradoxical logic
Now my head’s clear, and it’s so frustrating
If I could’ve borne it all unconsciously, it’d have been so much easier
I can’t laugh it off indifferently, I’m trying to keep up appearances
To those blocking my way and bursting with laughter
I can speak nothing but words of thanks
There’s no need to go back
The way things are now, I’ll just go home and sleep
I don’t want to be known
But I want you to understand… what should I say?
But on days my head is clear, I’ll scream out
Yeah! yeah! yeah! YEAH!
Far away, where there’s no one, that’s where I turn to face you
I wanna go yeah yeah yeah yeah!*